Darkness and cold prevail
She wails and curses her body's betrayal
Sinking ever deeper in the bleakness of her broken heart
Frustrated at life, and mourning her loss, she is tired of fighting
Knowing it has sunk its sharp teeth into her soul, gnawing and biting
© 2013 Reba White
Yes, it has finally got a hold of me, sunk it sharp teeth deep into my soul. Between my frustration at my body (the pain from my sacrum & the loss of my workouts and declined activity due to the pain), the loss of my Mom, and life in general, I have fallen into the darkness of depression.
I have no interest in much of anything. I am however recognizing the depression and seeking help in the form of herb tinctures: Motherwort for my anxiety and heart palpitations, and currently looking for St. John's Wort in tincture form. It was brought to my attention that St. John's in capsule form is not the best way to go and if I want good results, to do a tincture. I am hitting my local health store Friday, in hopes they have some. If worse comes to worse I will have to order online.
Motherwort aids in treating hot flashes, stress, heart palpitations, night sweats, and anxiety. It's traditionally used as a tea but can be used in tincture or capsule form. I got my tincture from my friend Christine at Christine's Natural Creations. Another great place to get herbs is my friend Sheila; you can find her products at Envizionz. Sheila has some awesome teas, as well as herbal capsules, ointments, etc.To keep it fair, I think I will enlist in Sheila's help for the St. John's if I can't find it local.
St. John's Wort
St. John's Wort aids in treating depression, anxiety, mood swings, chronic fatigue, and many more physical ailments, from bruising to hangovers and alcoholism. Look at it, even the plant itself is cheery :)
So although I may have succumbed... for the time being, I won't stay down for long. I have a life long history of battling depression, and I always come out of it... eventually. It's been a long time though, that I have been this bad. I am tired of fighting and for the moment I'm wallowing in it, but as soon as I get my St. John's I will rejoin the battle.